It has been quite some time since i last posted coz nth to post so didnt post. Ytd during maths lesson , can sae i'm SLIGHTLY focused in it , juz dunno y... but i learnt alot ytd...

Actually tot of asking my "bro" marcus to see when he free de.... coz i long time nv slack with him le.... but no choice he gt work.... juz hope he is free 1 fine day... Juz dunno y i cant slp the whole night leh... haizz.... sometimes i juz cant relax my mind... juz dunno y... seriously , these few days i'm nt in the mood to do anything.... dunno how sia....

nowaday , i guess i'm looking backwards instead of forwards..... strange.... I dunno how hv i done for my chinese oral today , the passage was easy , not tht i cant pronouce but i read like quite unsmooth , den somemore the conversation i was like nervous or lost like tht... dunno wad to talk sia.... no choice lor.... got to work hard for listening comprehension , paper 1 & 2 liao lor.... Today will be my oral... will be posting again ltr with regards to my oral.... but nowadays i feel very lethargic.... dun even feel like doing anything except to play , to slack... juz dunno y... wanna study but my lazy mind juz pull me away.... seriously i juz dunno wad is the matter with me.... i dunno the answer to myself either.... wonder how it goes & hw would i end up like?

Seriously speaking , my this life is filled with regrets , unsatisfaction towards the world & unwillingness... so i hope tht in my next life... i'd do well in my studies & treasure every min & every sec i hv with families & frens & to treat my bros especially as a part of my family.... coz in this life of mine... i'm nt the best person i can be.... i can even be better den this..... Juz nw went jp with jiawei , marcus & xinyu to look for jobs around jp... den passed by royal Sporting house , they wanna hire part timers , but their part - timers is like need to work on weekdays also.... 11am - 9pm... wah... damn tiring lor... den walk walk , go wallet shop , they want full timers... walau... nw its like damn bloody hard to find jobs lor.... aft tht follow them go jurong west sec... for no reason... den went back jp for lunch , i ate char siew rice wit ribena while jiawei ate wanton noodles... while marcus juz drink chrysanthemum... actually tot of eating mac's cheeseburger de... but ytd i juz ate big mac.... aft tht walk to int den i took 172 home...

Tmr is my chinese oral.... i'm getting more more nervous... juz dunno y.... i hope to passed it... but my greatest wish i to study together iwth marcus again... so as to enjoy the time & the thrill of studying together... at least i get some inspiration &/or motivation..... but will it happen? i doubt so... Juz receive a sms from my SS/ History teacher , Mr Rizlan saying tht he gt gastric flu... wah... like tht at home nth to do coz lesson cancelled go also no point so sian lor... nvm since thts tht , i shall go out & look for some casual & help my "bro" marcus to find job around lot 1 or so.... Firstly , i'd like to thank god tht my mp3 wasnt damaged despite being soaked in the water with my jeans.... coz tht is my dearest mp3 which means alot to me man... nw must take gd care of it....

Aft tht , in the aftnoon.... went back to me dad's office to take map & itinery for tmr morning trip... aft tht tot of taking 188 directly back home... so i decided to walk from Old Toh Tuck to ITE Clementi which is 2 bus stops away... juz to save $$$... den as i walked its quite tiring & pathetic as the path underneath the MRT bridge was covered due to works & i've to walk by the side of the kerb... which was quite a risk as its damn bloody near to the road... as i was walking i start thinking abt life whereby life isnt free from suffering... there are many obstacles to face before reaching ur desire goal... as i walked... suddenly , i heard a sound of an engine roaring which sounded familiar... like Mitsubishi BE434 bus or lorry series de... my prediction was correct... xue jun drove tht 19 seater passed by & braked in front of me.... at first i tot he didnt see me as i didnt wave & didnt expect anyone to drive me... he stopped & looked at me so i ran towards the bus & he drove me for 1 stop until opp ITE Clementi... i thank him & crossed the road to wait for 188... as i was waiting... i tot i saw my "bro" marcus & jiawei... but i guess i was wrong as the distance was quite far & didnt manage to see clearly.... but true enough they are.... wad a coincidence... the earth is round man... lol... so we waited for the bus together & i took 188 with jiawei.... can sae i seem to be very emo nowadays as in the bus i cant think of wad to talk to jiawei.. but chatted a little...

Well.. recently it seems to me tht i've fell in love with english songs.. juz dunno y leh....



Till the end - David Tan
All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all night
I don't know how I found you
I'm thankful that I have Now that I have a love so true
To hold, to keep, to share
*In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world there in no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my girl
You through it all I know
That you've come to see that you're the one till the end
All my friends around me
Say you'd be gone too soon
Baby I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home(Repeat*)
We'll always be till the end

Quite a touching lyrics... i liked this song... but cant manage to d/l it.... Walau.... i dunno y these few days i find myself like very sway like tht!!! nabae _l_ i left my mp3 player in my jeans & its was soaked in water!!!! knn.... like tht spil liao la... :'(.... sob... tht mp3 means alot to me man!!!! Well my oral is coming nearer... juz to thank my "bro" marcus for wishing me all the best in my oral & for giving me confidence tht i can do it... well... juz to tell myself ( although i'm a person who cant study well).. i will & i can do it... cheers... bros forever!!! :) _9 more days to my o lvls chinese oral.... sian.... time realli flies & time has caused lots of changes in life.... no choice... coz life is unpredictable... u will nt know wad is going to happen tmr... read in the papers abt china riots again.... pity sia...but wad to do? wad has happened has happened , wad is done cannot be undone.... juz hv to adapt & overcome with time & life...

Nw i've fall in love with this song sia... :

All or nothing- O'town

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought it's time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
But something somewhere's gotta give
As sharing in this relationship gets older, older
You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I don't care if that's not fair

Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here
with nothing at all

There are time it seems to me I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it
Then there's times you look at me As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it
Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell

Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall When you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing at all

Cuz you and I Could lose it all if you've got no more room No more inside for me in your life

Cuz I want it all Or Nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never

Is it all Or nothing at all There's nowhere left to fall When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

The bold part is wad i like most abt this song.... coz nw there is nth left for me to fall , i'm left with nth at all.... my happiness , my wishes , my happiest pasts..... is all gone... coz i want it all or nth at all.... Today reached home at 9pm , nth to do so come here to blog.... actually SUPPOSE to hv night class de... indeed there is but as our maths teacher , mr kamal is teaching suddenly he gt a back pain , dunno is it food poisoning or blood stone or wad.... so in the end he went out of the class awhile.... tink to take some panadol... den not long aft the supervisor came to our class & sae : class , bad news... as ur teacher is nt feeling well , i'm afraid tht we hv to cancel the class..... can sae gd & can sae bad.... coz the gd thing is can go home early , the bad thing is... i miss maths lesson!!! omg!!!... hope tht mr kamal is better nw...

Aft tht took mrt from yew tee to lot 1 ( can sae very lame) go there walk walk see gt shops wanting to hire part-timers , as to help my "bro" marcus find job.... but to no avail leh.... thts y i'm longing for a class 4 / 5 driving license , can go driver bus or trailer as part - timers... salary at least gt $1k.... haizzz....

nw i wanted to buy laptop , go harvey norman & best see some laptops le.... some of it are of my interest.... but den i can only pay by instalment coz no $$$ la... hw to folk out $ 1.5k at one short? Again the gd news is harvey norman & best charge no interest for instalment , the bad news is the instalment in only applicable to credit card holders!!! wtf.... my parents dun hv credit card!!! anyway i shall stop here.... going to slp soon...

take care & gd nite....