today went to kwan inn temple to pray for my can say NIC2 application & can say also to study together with my frens.... somemore my o lvls... den i go & get chiam... 2 medium , 1 gd.... juz hope so lor... one of my chiam says: Wait till the time comes... Be patient... well i guess i've got to be patient... but will the time comes? coz although xian wei juz told me tht he might be leaving the course.. ( means possible 1 more vacancy)... i feel sorry for him.... but although i hope / dreaming to get into higher nitec once there is vacancy.... i doubt so... coz... i noe chances are very slim.... can sae i'm pretty given up... unless someone can help me by asking the SH tht i've already applied but can i get in.... like i said... i sweared & promised... tht if i'm given the chance to get into higher nitec , i'll study hard & thank the god & if i dun study hard... i'll let the car bang to death when i go out , kana choke to death when eating &/or sot struck to death by lighting.....

Last saturday ( the day before) , i had a chat with marcus.... was talking & thinking back abt last yr in our class.... the jokes we played , our happy times together & can sae thts the most happiest times ever... i wept siliently coz now its over.... its all over... & moreover to make me recall it.... i cried as i was sorry especially to my "bro" marcus tht last yr they will trying to be funny & play jokes with me... but i take it seriously like they are trying to prank me... so i often scold them or ignore them or hate them juz coz of such things... only now when all this is over den i start knowing how fun it is actually last yr... but i dun treasure it & now its gone.. its over... its over... how i wish time will stop there or juz go back there... back to tht time.... perhaps i'd hv work hard & passed & who knows i'll with marcus again this yr..... unless there is a miracle.... or someone recommend me... if not its really over... sob... :'(

But wadeva it is i'm still waiting patiently... for the day.... but will it ever come? who knows? Well can sae congrats to my "bro" marcus for being enlisted to higher nitec in banking... its time for him to work hard le.... as for me... i maybe taking up 2 years nitec course.... so after tht can join spf.... now taking up o lvls also hope tht i can do well in it... so tht got 1 more cert better mah.... now i'm going to miss marcus so as the rest of , in fact most of my buddies... aft all i got a sense of unwillingness.... no choice.... in life u cant choose....there times where we got to take our own ways.... so... maybe this is the god's fate.... he is better than me....

Now i hv applied for nitec april intake course... 2 yrs de.... god.... bless me pls.... i wanna get in!!!! If i get in le i'll sure go thank u de & i swear to god... tht if i'm given this chance to take up nitec course again.... i'lll study hard to pass it & so as o lvls.... if not i'll die an ugly death... go uot let car bang... eat fish / fishball kana choke to death... Long time nv post le.... now is kinda boring.... currently i'm taking up night classes for o lvls.... if not wad to do... ITE cannot get in... too bad my "bro" marcus cant get into night classes... so he have to study on his own.... nvm i'll try to help him de as i care abt him... hehe.... last yr started being frens with him... as a new frens den abt a mth or so he start to call me "bro" in sms... now we even call each other "bro"... dunno y leh.... suddenly i'm like quite close to him... like his gor gorl ike tht.... haizzz..... now taking up o lvls.... hope to do well.... in future start to set up business.... hehe....