Sometimes , i really feel disgusted about my english , i've never failed english in the whole of my life but i did this year!!!! Just dunno why , now i failed my oral dunno mid year / n lvl can pass anot , mdm kurusamy said that i shouldnt have failed , i failed due to nervous , thats wad she said abt mi. in fact , it was even true , my english tends to be quite good! Ah nvm , juz try my best in mid year. If i cant even pass english den i forget abt my volvo in 2 yrs time. Juz to tell yaoming something , if u have always failed english , does mean its the end of the world , it also doesn't mean that u will never ever pass english , u will at least pass , if not , i & jon will help u , juz dun tink too much. haizzz.... not easy being a class chairperson , sometimes really i feel that i'm so careless & irresponsible , today i realized that i forgot to put the books back to the lockers!!!! Fuck! Why am i always like that Walau..... fail physics test again! Aiya..... wads done cannot be undone , that means i must study liao. cannot dun revise , coz i lazy thats why , but juz dun understand , why cant all my subjects be like my mother tongue? Dun even need to study also a1??? Wow...so touching & sad siah....曲终人散 ， sob...sob , this song realli makes mi cry coz i feel that i'm experiencing this , haizzz.... no one understands my problems , i guess i'm realli thinking too much abt friendship , well anyone can help mi? Congratulations to our Shuqun Symphonic Winds for achiving silver for syf this year , well , i could understand that some of you may be aiming for gold as u all hv been putting in enormous effort (用心良苦) in it , well silver is still the best , as long as u are in top 3rd category , u all are the best , so dun be upset! There's still chance! At least u guys still gets silver , not 用心良苦却成空. Wat ppl says: A humans route is a zillion & trillion miles , wat is a small hardwork? Do not be upset or give up for juz a temporary failure , despite of failures , we shall go forward step by step & you'll get wad u want! Thats success! There's nth which is a step to sky ( 一步登天) , even the tallest tower is built slowly step by step from the ground. Wow , wad a day today , juz now when i come back from Bt Timah , Turf City , i took 67 back home , the bus like siao wan , engine top & restart 2 times and kept on overun the bus stop. Wtf. Then i kept speeding & brake , speeding & brake. Its getting mi giddy! Today is sportsday. Bloody hell see peh sian ley... nth to do... wat can i do , no one wants mi to run coz maybe they think i'm slow.. but why cant they juz give mi a try? ah... its over perhaps is i 用心良苦却成空 , next time i dun want to be so 用心良苦 liao. i trained myself so hard to run fast and now i did it & den i got no chance , i worked so hard & be the best & now wad i get in the end? NOTHING BUT SHIT!!! sometimes i'm asking myself , whether should i be nice , gentle & humble or to be stubborn , i think next time i better be a bit pandang / tiki. ah~ today yaoming ran 2 times , 1 is baton rely for class & the other for band , run until in the end he's so dehydrated (actually can be seen from the way he run the 2nd time) and nearly fainted! I stayed with him in the toilet so as to make sure nth happen to him , juz in case he faint , i can call for medics as its better to play safe than sorry. when i see him in this situation , my heart kept on beating as my heart is akready in my mouth , i was so worried & scared as i'm worried / afraid that he'll faint. Wow.. wad a day! I think i saved the day today lolx. We had a day of our own world ytd as it was yuda's birthday , we went the restaurant which my mum work at , Kenny Rogers Marine Cove & we had a fun time celebrating yuda's birthday there , ytd he dress up like man sia , look like wuzun. lol. Well i hope in future , we'll hv the chance to do that again. Lol. juz now juz do chaos' friendtest wat sia , only get 30/100 , wonmder how is he now? Is he getting better? Poor boy , he got flu + fever + throat infection. haizzz..... i'm so worried , cant afford to see my frenzs sick. Today chinese oral , dunno can pass anot. Now its getting nearer to N level , well i scared sia , later if i fail english i'm doomed! Well , btw how i wish i could get a driving license now! At least if i fail my n level , i can go & drive the big buses of Comfort & earn $3000 + $700 comission total $3700 per mth , gd sia! sob! i can only get it at the age of 18. People always say 靠自己才会赢　 which is it depends on yourself to win , this 2 days , i've been listening to this 2 songs , this one above & who is hero 谁是英雄　this 2 songs is to remind myself not to scared of failure as human life is juz like the wave in the sea , there's high tide & there's low tide. Hmm.... i wonder if i'd be able to do well for my maths test tml?