today went to kwan inn temple to pray for my can say NIC2 application & can say also to study together with my frens.... somemore my o lvls... den i go & get chiam... 2 medium , 1 gd.... juz hope so lor... one of my chiam says: Wait till the time comes... Be patient... well i guess i've got to be patient... but will the time comes? coz although xian wei juz told me tht he might be leaving the course.. ( means possible 1 more vacancy)... i feel sorry for him.... but although i hope / dreaming to get into higher nitec once there is vacancy.... i doubt so... coz... i noe chances are very slim.... can sae i'm pretty given up... unless someone can help me by asking the SH tht i've already applied but can i get in.... like i said... i sweared & promised... tht if i'm given the chance to get into higher nitec , i'll study hard & thank the god & if i dun study hard... i'll let the car bang to death when i go out , kana choke to death when eating &/or sot struck to death by lighting.....

Last saturday ( the day before) , i had a chat with marcus.... was talking & thinking back abt last yr in our class.... the jokes we played , our happy times together & can sae thts the most happiest times ever... i wept siliently coz now its over.... its all over... & moreover to make me recall it.... i cried as i was sorry especially to my "bro" marcus tht last yr they will trying to be funny & play jokes with me... but i take it seriously like they are trying to prank me... so i often scold them or ignore them or hate them juz coz of such things... only now when all this is over den i start knowing how fun it is actually last yr... but i dun treasure it & now its gone.. its over... its over... how i wish time will stop there or juz go back there... back to tht time.... perhaps i'd hv work hard & passed & who knows i'll with marcus again this yr..... unless there is a miracle.... or someone recommend me... if not its really over... sob... :'(

But wadeva it is i'm still waiting patiently... for the day.... but will it ever come? who knows?